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Took this picture of Jackamo on a train in Sri Lanka
HI tumblr, sudah sekian lama saya tidak berada di sini. A lot of my time was spent by studying hehe I studied a lot ^^. Anyway this post is specifically about what I felt, well still feeling. So I had a dream last night. I would say it is an amazing dream because when I think about it my heart skipped a beat, I got this warm fuzzy feeling, it’s indescribable. I dreamt that i am very much in love. I do not know with whom I am in love with but it felt magical and he swept me of my feet. What he said to me felt real as if it’s really happening like I was really there.
“My sayang is so cute today” literally haunts me! I know this guy is tall with a build body. No face but he was wearing a white shirt as I was hugging him tightly feeling the warmth of his skin onto mine and his lips was on my forehead. He has a great relationship with my family because it takes place at my house and he was talking to my mum. Weird. It all started with “that guy” picked me up in a huge car. I think it’s a Range Rover because the interior looks expensive and I just have this feeling like it is a Range. We went to some place full of manusia tapi nampak macam zombie, scary gila and we got into an accident. He was protective :’) sweet gila k this guy. Then he came to my house had some conversation with my family members, he didn’t want to tell me what’s going on THEN somehow he pujuked me with sweet sweet words.
This dream of mine is a like “a room with new furnitures” because you love it at first but then as time passes by you got tired of it. Im tired of thinking about it. IT IS JUST A DREAM but I can’t seem to let it go. I don’t know if any of you experienced the same thing. Maybe it is just nature taking it’s toll? or maybe it’s a sign from God that I will love again and I will be love by this jejaka handsome yang mempunyai badan yang cukup hot :3 or maybe it is just me getting so caught up with all the love stories that I watched through out the year. Whatever it is in reality I’m still that Edlyn that is oh so famous for being my best friends’ third wheeler. </3
So basically this post is about me giving thanks to my friends? It is a little bit personal, so bear with me. Here’s the deal Alia offered me to go jogging with her and then I realized I need to let them know how I feel. I appreciate what her intention is, to help me loose weight yeah or to teman her jog whichever don’t care, but what she doesn’t know is what’s bugging me about ‘jogging’ and all the other stuffs.
Read my rant
1. They are all skinny bitches I couldn’t keep up with them.
2. As you all know clothes are very limited for my size. You always see me in the same clothes in most of my pictures because I do not own that much. Its hard to find em and I do not have the proper attire to actually go to gyms, jog arnd the park etc etc
3. I am very insecure with myself, hence I do not like to be in public even though sometimes I like it to be about me :)
4. I ran out of ideas, no actually it’s better for me to keep it to myself. Cheerio.
Define the meaning of friends for me because honestly i don’t have any clue right now. I do not know whether this is me being the sensitive self or people are actually annoyed by me. Whatever it is years of friendship will never mean a thing if the word ‘fake’ is involve. I am in dire need of a new sets of friends because right now I cannot differentiate the real ones and the not so real ones. I know that posting this up will bring trouble but heck I need to speak up for myself and I do not want to hide behind the curtains anymore. It’s time for me to be me. I’ve had it.
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Here’s the thing. I do not know this guy I mean I know him but I’ve never talk to him. Seen him once or twice anyway I think I might have a crush on him. Well well well funny eh? HE IS MALAYSIAN! and he is not a celebrity. I am known for having lots and lots of celebrity crushes but don’t worry this guy is a normal, average not so cause he’s super handsome guy of my dreams kind of thing.
So any who, I’ve always been the rejected one, so I’m quite nervous on this new crush of mine. Is he going to be my crush forever or I’ll be crushed someday? Well good thing is he’s not here, in Malaysia. I will definitely not have any chance of seeing him soon, talk to him lagi la. Omg get to know him? lagi takde chance. Feelings will fade right? Wish me luck people of tumblr that I know will not read these kind of posts. Okay good night.